i created a section in this website called 'personal financial documents'. i moved information from 'miscellaneous files' section to 'personal financial documents'.
i am considering establishing a 'GoFundMe' fund raising account on the internet. it would be great if i could raise $500 or $1000 per month. the last time i checked, in 2018, i am allowed to earn about $1,200 per month working part time, while still being able to retain my social security disability insurance of about $1,000 per month. my life is really too confusing and weird to be able to work consistently, happily or efficiently at a regular job with other employees. unusual situation. unnecessary prejudice or potential unnecessary prejudice. i would not be doing a good job for a future employer if i even applied to work somewhere, because i already know that there is a problem, and not that maybe there will be a problem. a manager would think that they don't want a problem or a potential problem, not for their employees either. i don't think that i would be able to do volunteer work, either, or at least not right now. i am going to try soon. today is 8/17/24. a very few people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with have mental problems, or personality disorders, and are evil, blatantly, childishly stalking and harassing me, and others, not establishing trust, so that without a doubt there wouldn't be a problem at a regular job, or at a volunteer work job. extremely irritating. it is perverted. they think that they have gotten themselves into social trouble over the years, and are now nervous and socially lame. if i state something to the public about it, like on this website, they want ignorant people to think that i am faking being sick. i am not faking being sick. i would never do that. honest work gives me a sense of pride, accomplishment, and confidence. the very few people who are acting up, being unnecessarily aggressive, don't care about themselves. my life really isn't glamorous, and i don't think that it will ever be glamorous. as stated, a very few of the people who i am stuck with have mental problems, or personality disorders. maybe it will get better, but i would need some real evidence of that in order to state it with certainty. i doubt it. as challenging as this is for me and the 144,000, we do have great pride and interesting spiritual moments. people can download my art to their phone or computer from this website if they want to. i am almost finished with some more of it. go to 'personal financial documents' section of this website to see social security disability insurance paperwork. it is possible to donate anonymously to a 'GoFundMe' fund raising internet account. also, money raised on a 'GoFundMe' fund raising internet account doesn't interfere or work against my social security disability insurance. i checked. take as much art as you want from this website, if you would like to have it. i wish that i could sign the work. maybe i could do a little, two or three days per week, volunteer work somewhere in houston, texas, but given what has happened thus far, it might not be possible or a good idea. if that changes, i will let you know. i really hope that i can, because consistent activity is healthy for us. a little socialization. i think that people are surprised by the fact that i have worked out in the country (la grange, texas) for as long as i have, 3 years, or since the fall of 2021, with a weird amount of unnecessary, unusual stress and confusion. i am usually talking out loud in frustration and confusion while i work, but it doesn't matter so much because i am by myself, outside in the country. it still makes me feel good to get up early for a few days in a row every other week and accomplish something. a few of these people tried to stop me, trying to humiliate me or make it look like i am fake, but they couldn't. i hope for the their sake, and the sake of the community in general, that they decide to make a change for the better, and stop with the unnecessary childish aggression. they created an image problem for themselves, or a social problem for themselves, publicly, really since 2008, and so they are trying to give me and the good people who i know defend me the image problem, or social problem, publicly. it won't work. i can't work at a regular paying job, in order to be a more financially comfortable every month, and peaceful, not stressed or not worried about money. i am required to support myself, and also people who are situated all over the world. it is for a good cause.
sorry if this seems like too much rambling, but the people who are stalking me and everyone else are childish and weird. i am nervous and never really peaceful because of unwanted, weird, confusing aggression from others. it is what happens to famous, public people who don't have security.
i wish that it didn't seem like i am always complaining. it is an unusual, weird situation, and i have a legitimate complaint. i would really like to work early in the morning, part time, at a grocery store, or early in the morning, part time, at a starbuck's, and if it really seems like there wouldn't be a problem, i will apply for a job. it would be fun to be around some people for a few hours every week, working together as a team. therapeutic. i seriously doubt that i would ever think that there wouldn't be a problem because of what has happened for the last 16 years, or since 2008. the people who are acting up unnecessarily aggressive have mental problems or personality disorders. they have done so much damage for so long that it is already a serious problem not trusting them, with them making us uncomfortable.
now that i think about it again, i think that it would be too confusing for me and the people who i worked with for me to work at a regular job. awkward. my heart or will thinks one thing, but my brain thinks another. i think that people want privacy, and they may feel uncomfortable or confused by the thought of me working around them. everyone would also have to worry about customers coming in to the place of work and doing something weird or provocative. there is a chance that it could happen. i am willing to work, but i think that it really is too confusing, stressful, or awkward at a job with many employees. maybe some volunteer work where i am mostly by myself?
i think that i will set the GoFundMe money raising goal as $30,000. that is for 3 years, or $10,000 per year. i want to put the money somewhere safe, so that i can not spend it faster than i should, only $10,000 per year. i don't know if i can transfer only part of what would be in a GoFundMe money raising internet account to another account as needed, so that the public can keep track of what i am doing with money. a money raising goal of $30,000 can be exceeded, if donors wish to do that. i only want to spend $10,000 a year. i can post my spending, if i am not allowed to transfer only part of what would be in a displayed GoFundMe account.
i am confused about how to set a GoFundMe account financial goal. i thought that i could create a short term goal of $30,000, which could be repeated every 3 years, so that people can monitor my spending, but that seems like i am creating too much work for would be donors. i am now 51 years old, and if i live to be 75 or 80 years old, or about 25 to 30 years from now, raising $10,000 per year would be $250,000 or $300,000. i am just thinking out loud. i was thinking about what i thought that other people were thinking. i was thinking that people who already think that they would want to donate to the fund were thinking that $30,000 is not a large enough goal. i don't know what i will raise, but i appreciate any help that i can get. in a way $250,000 or $300,000 seems like it is too high of a goal, so i can continue with a goal of $30,000, which can be exceeded. i will post an annual financial statement regardless of how much money i can raise. i will keep it to $10,000 per year.
$250,000 seems like a lot to be asking for, but it is not much money when considering how many people could potentially donate, if they donate $1 or $5 or $10. i could use the help please. thanx for your consideration.
another reason why it would be very difficult or impossible for me to work at a grocery store or starbucks or some place where there is many people is that i become confused when i read something by chance, which seems like i am thinking something or communicating something which i am not, sometimes just one syllable of what i looked at. or if i hear something which someone else says, which makes me think of something else, with me not thinking that it is important, but then if it seems like i am thinking that it is important because i am repeatedly thinking that it is not important. i would have to talk out loud in order to explain to people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with what is going on in my mind, and it would look strange, and it would be exhausting, and not be appropriate for me to work in a public place. my heart and will say one thing, but my brain says another. it is too awkward and confusing, for everyone. i would like to do volunteer work somewhere 1 or 2 times per week if it is possible, or not too much of a problem. i used to go to bible study a few years ago, as doing something away from my home, consistently, once a week. it is healthy for the group i am in. the emphasis was not on the the importance of the bible, but healthy consistent socialization or activity.
i guess that i will set the GoFundMe account financial goal at $250,000, instead of $30,000.
i want to get all of my artwork out of the photoshop lab, and upload to this website, before i set up a GoFundMe internet account. i am not sure how long it will take because of the photoshop lab's work capability, plus not knowing exactly how much work i have left to do. i have been going into the photoshop lab, making changes every week or two. the worker needs time for each change, in addition to other projects which she is working on. thanks, if you are thinking of donating. i am going to the social security office tomorrow morning to get in writing the exact amount of money which i am allowed to earn per month, while still being able to retain my social security disability benefit. i think that it is about $1,200 per month. i will get it in writing and upload to this website, to the 'personal financial documents' section of this website. i think that $5,000 to $10,000 per year is a reasonable GoFundMe goal, but i don't understand if GoFundMe can be set up for long term, or repetitious financial goals. i also understand if people only feel comfortable donating only one time. $5,000 per year is about $400 per month. $10,000 is about $800 per month. i can also upload a new social security administration disability benefit statement letter, at the beginning of each year.
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another reason that i wouldn't feel comfortable working in a place with many employees is because i would think that employees would know who i was, or be thinking that there is something interesting about the situation, and not say anything to me about what they were thinking, or about what they knew about, confusing me and making me feel awkward or uncomfortable while i have to think of people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with thinking about what i am thinking of, or confused about, trying to work and focus. i would want people to indicate that they knew who i was, if they did, wanting me to think that they wanted me to make me feel comfortable in public, while i was trying to focus and work. i think that some people would probably think that it is interesting to casually toy with me, thinking that they knew that they were getting attention, knowing that i have to do something extraordinarily difficult, publicly, to see if i become confused, or say something about it to relieve stress, in order to see if people who i am in constant 24/7 activity with would communicate about it on the internet. that would be twisted, prejudicial and a little frightening, since it would inevitably make me feel awkward and nervous in public. people could pretend as if they don't know who i am, or pretend as if they don't know that there has been a problem, or that they should have some responsibility.
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i posted my social security benefit award letter in the 'personal financial documents' section of this website.
i posted the social security fact sheet, with highlighted information, in reference to the amount of money, gross, which i could earn per year while still being able to receive my social security disability insurance. $1,550 per month. 'personal financial documents' section.
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i think that maybe i will end up raising more money than i really need with GoFundMe. i appreciate any help which i can get. i will always keep people posted about what i have, and what i am doing with money. i will give what i don't need to charity, and keep you informed, posting bank statements. i would never be into extravagant crap spending. 'guide dogs for the blind' is one charity which i give a little money to every year. i could give more if i have more. i also thought about donating to some place for children who have been abused or abandoned. i also thought about being able to build something at a church or somewhere else. maybe downtown houston? artwork? maybe i could pay and help someone.
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you can print the art on metallic paper, or other types of special print paper, at a specialty print shop. or, you can simply print it on card stock material (fed ex office, etc.). cheers. i think that it would probably look good printed on metallic print paper, but more expensive.
'artwork* (4) can be printed on brushed aluminum di-bond at a specialty print place. i created black and white longhorn cow images. black and white images printed on brushed aluminum di-bond look good, but a little expensive. no need for a frame. full frame print. they stick out from the wall about 1/2 of an inch, with a spacer fixed to the back of the metal. the brushed aluminum gives it interesting texture.
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people can now download images from the artwork* sections of this website. cheers. if you click on the image which you want to look at or download, you will see a download button to click at the bottom of the image.
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i thought more about a GoFundMe fund raising internet account. my dad and mom would want me to use my own money, if i had it, for things such as purchasing a future used car and air conditioning unit at my house. i gave a preliminary GoFundMe fundraising goal of $800 or $1000 per month, or total of $10,000 or$12,000 per year, but this wouldn't work every year if i use my own money to purchase some necessary things. my dad and mom would want me to use money which i raised, if i was able to raise any. this is not a bait and switch scheme. right now my upstairs air conditioner is not working. the air conditioning company told me that it is better to replace it, rather than to replace parts, because of the age of the unit. my dad just helped me with a brand new downstairs air conditioning unit about 1 and 1/2 years ago. he helps me, but we are not super rich. right now he doesn't have the money to purchase a new unit for my upstairs. this is not a lie. my dad and mom would probably be offended if i had money which i was able to raise, and then act like i didn't need to spend it on necessities, passing the cost on to them. i would naturally tell my parents if i was able to raise any money with a GoFundMe internet fund raising account. what i am stating is that there might be a few times, not many, when i have to spend more than the budget which i proposed would allow me to. these air conditioning units are about $13,000. i found out that they are phasing out the current type units, and that the new ones later are about $20,000. since i am 51 years old, i am guessing that i will need to replace both units at my home again, after i replace the current upstairs unit. they last about 15 years. i don't want really expensive cars. i think that $20,000 or $25,000 is ok for a used volkswagen. my current volkswagen is a 2016 jetta. i got it in 2018, used. it now has $130,000 miles on it. it had about 30,000 miles on it when i got it. i guess that i will be able to drive a newly purchased used car for about 10 years, also thinking of not real expensive maintenance fees.
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don't want to upset anyone, but i have always wanted to cruise on a motor bike from houston to galveston island, up and down along the seawall, on a cool, sunny day. i would like to buy a motor bike if there is plenty of money. they are about 10 or 12 thousand dollars. it is about one and 1/2 hour drive from my home in houston to galveston island. i only want do cruise early saturday or sunday mornings. safe. not stupid riding. i don't have experience as a motor cycle rider, and i know that accidents are easy to happen if you are playing around. i don't want to drive fast. good helmet and protective gear. i crashed on a scooter once when i was about 13 years old when i gave it too much throttle, thinking it was exciting, so i know that i don't want to do the same type of thing again. i don't want to ride around in houston, except for a safe, non freeway route to my girlfriend's every once in a while.
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ARTWORK* (1, 2, 3) / 5 X 7, 8 X 10 / FULL FRAME PRINTS / DOWNLOADABLE section of this website. click on each image to determine whether 5 x 7 or 8 x 10.
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there isn't a clear distinction between between me raising money with a GoFundMe internet fund raising account because i am disabled, and unable to work at a regular paying job, or whether people are compensating me financially for creating downloadable art. i am thinking ethics.
i stated that i don't need or want more than $1,000 per month, or $12,000 per year. if the GoFundMe money raised exceeds the goal, i will be very happy to donate money to charity. i thought that it if there is plenty of money raised with a GoFundMe fund raising internet, that it would be ok for me to up my annual spending limit to $15,000, if i also work part time (3 days a week/12 or 15 hours per week) at a volunteer organization somewhere in houston. i want to go by the Houston ASPCA, and/or other animal care/protective organizations, and ask questions. i am going to do this soon. today is 8/17/24.
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i have used photoprints.app for printing at walmart. user friendly. you can download art from my website to your phone or computer, then send to walmart using that website. it will ask you for the size you want. i also go to CVS or walgreens photo kiosks.
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heads up. i would like to give my step father, who has helped me and many other people all over the world, a little compensation for his effort. i was thinking $10,000 or $20,000, depending on what a GoFundMe fund raising account could look like. i am guessing that he would put it toward my home. he is still paying it off. i would like him to take a good trip with my mom somewhere, too. i am not asking you to give me this money. i am letting people know that i will give this money out, if there is plenty in a GoFundMe. my dad's support of me over the years has done so much for the entire world. i have put him through some difficult times in the past when my situation was very confusing. he never quit loving me, or doing his job as a father.
also, my girlfriend developed a hiatal hernia a few years ago. it has caused her, and still causes her much pain and confusion. i would like to help her with part of the cost of surgery to fix it.
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the CVS store print system works good. kiosk machines. they have a 'satin finish' option which is good. i chose 'with white border' option. good for a 5 x 7 print.
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i edited posts above. please review.
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i don't think that i can get a job as a volunteer at the houston SPCA. i am not sure. i hope that i can. in the volunteer information on the website, it states that applicants are screened, and not granted permission to work with animals if people have a history of violent behavior. i was charged with injury to an elderly, my step father, but the charge was dismissed by the judge. i am on very good terms with all of my family, and take very good care of my pets. i understand the reason, if it is determined that i can not work there.
i sent messaged them electronically, with the same information. i could go ahead with the application process anyway. it is ok if i am turned down. i want what is best for the animals, and the people who work with them.
today is 8/17/24.
maybe i could work in a houston SPCA administrative office, doing volunteer work, or doing janitorial duties. i don't care. i would really like to go somewhere, work hard, and say hi to people a few days out of the week. i can always look somewhere else for volunteer work. no problem.
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my heart thinks one thing, my brain thinks another. this in reference to the thought of volunteer work. i don't think that i would feel comfortable going to work somewhere if i wasn't officially, publicly acknowledged. i don't think that other people would feel comfortable at a work place either. i don't have to make myself sick. i'm a little sad about this, because it would be nice to have coworkers, or friends at work, but it still seems like it would be too awkward if no official, public acknowledgement about me was made. i stated that i was thinking of raising a future annual financial allowance to $15,000 per year, if i worked as a volunteer somewhere. i thought that i could raise to $15,000 per year, even if i don't work as a volunteer somewhere. then i thought $20,000, because $15,000 per year doesn't enable me to save some per year, or be able to invest, or have some in savings. i've never really had money before, so i am going through the motions. i get the feeling that people think that it is ok. i think that i am worth it. social security allows me to earn $1,550 per month, and still be able to retain my social security disability payment. $1,550 x 12 months per year = $18,600 per year. i'll just make it a $20,000 per year financial allowance. it is possible that i could change my mind about volunteer work somewhere in a few years, if something happens which would make me think that i would feel comfortable in a work place, along with the thought that i felt that other people were comfortable, or not conflicted by it.
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i created a 'personal financial documents' section in this website. i moved several things from the 'miscellaneous files' section of this website to the 'personal financial documents' section.
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there is some miscellaneous images in the 'artwork* (8)' section. i think that they are good. maybe more interesting that the country photos.
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10/17/24
the art is very close to being done.
i'm adding a hint of yellow to 'slice of pie' with the red dot. it will look better. it was my real dad's suggestion. there will be several versions.
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'artwork* (4) can be printed on brushed aluminum di-bond at a specialty print place. i created black and white longhorn cow images. black and white images printed on brushed aluminum di-bond look good, but a little expensive. no need for a frame. full frame print. they stick out from the wall about 1/2 of an inch, with a spacer fixed to the back of the metal. the brushed aluminum gives it interesting texture.
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i'm just going to set it up so that earnings generated from a GoFundMe internet fundraising account are 60% for charity, donated annually, and 40% for me, to be divided, monthly. it is easier for me to personally manage, and for the public to gauge. i don't want to sell myself short, and i think that i am worth it. i can set up an additional checking account at chase, where i bank, for charity money to be deposited and kept until transferred to the charity organization. i'll keep records and post to my website. i have other art ideas. i am basically finished with this first round of artwork. i worked on something else which i want to come back to. it is good, but i need a break, and i want to get going. i want to call it "take a break". it will take me 2 months to get my art out of the photoshop lab, for financial reasons. i don't have much experience working with money. one issue with money is what you do with it when you die. i want to give some of my personal money to my family, my step father, while he is alive, my niece and nephews, and my girlfriend's son, but i think most of it to charity, when i die. it can be verified later on. actually, i will probably give most of my money to my sister's kids (niece and nephews), and girlfriend's son. i also want to set up some long term, low risk investments with my personal money, like with Oppenheimer or J.P. Morgan. thanx for your consideration.
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11/22/24
slice of pie / artwork
located in 'miscellaneous files' section of this website.
11/22/24. i will have the electronic file available to download in about 2 months. other versions also. i like the simple black and white version the best. i don't like the red and yellow, with the black and white. i think that either version with just red dot, or version with just yellow lines is best, if you want some color with the black and white. the black line around the work got cut off on one side. the electronic file work includes the large outer white border. print on metallic paper, at a specialty print place, if you can afford it. you can also print on cardstock material, at a place like fed ex office. peace.
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12/9/24
i am going to work on the photo image with horses, editing out some of the shrub on the left side of the image it will be available with art filter seen in 'artwork* 8' section, and artwork* 4 section of this website, black and white.'